I'm Two Decades Old

I turned 20 today. I looked at my past blog from my last birthday. It has several goals on it. Well I have completed none of them.

I guess this past years my goals have changed alot. The small amount of money I was able to save went into buying this house. Dirt bags does have a website, but consists of only a template and a poll. I'm not really interested in website design anymore. I've concluded I don't have the attention span for coding, or the time or the energy to read books about different coding languages. I haven't gotten a library card yet because I'm now not sure where my local library is since we moved. I still don't have my drivers license, but I did take my driving test and failed.

What has happened this year is that I had my daughter, we moved, I made a ton of hats I never sold, went to quite a few music festivals, tried to go vegetarian again, made a ton of baby carriers, went to the beach for a week, wore shorts for the first time in years, wrote a million posts in various message boards, started eating organic food, started drinking coffee and I worked at a discount department store for a very short period of time.

My goals have changed. I'm starting to know what my strengths and weaknesses are and how to use them to my advantage. For example, I'm pretty good at sewing so I have started making baby carriers to sell online. I'm learning how to deal with my anger by avoiding conflict. My main focus is probably my daughter. I would love to volunteer or participate in more of my own interests, but I have to take care of another person 24/7 (does that count as volunteering?) I look forward to my daughter getting older so I have more time for myself. Already I can see it happening, as she grows older she is more independent perhaps because I threw so much energy and attention into her since she was born. I look forward to going to school in the spring and starting to grow food as well. I would have done that this year, but we we're forced out of our old house right when planting starts here. My only crops we're herbs that got washed out after various thunder storms. Maybe I should move that kind of thing inside.

I'm not really comfortable with being 20. I don't feel like I have accomplished what I thought I would have by this point in my life. I have also done things I would have never imagined. I guess the positive is that I am only one year away from being able to go to bars...which means I'll be able to get into open mic nights and play music.

A year really isn't that long.